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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Feeling Broken

So I feel very broken today, like a toy that was purchased for a child and when they went to play with it, it was already broken. That's me, the broken toy. 

I've tried so hard for over two years to always be strong in the face of infertility, but sometimes, the weight of it all is too heavy. Tomorrow, I start a new chapter in this journey, I start injectables. My doctor is positive that this will work for me. I trust Dr. V, I really do, but I guess there's a part of me that feels like this is never going to happen.


I'm thankful that I serve a God who would never give me more than I could handle. I know that there are many lessons that He is teaching me throughout this journey. But nonetheless, it is still emotionally trying. Today is one of my "blah" days. I just feel like I should be returned to the "Future Mommy" store and labeled "Broken." Ugh...just one of those days. These feelings will pass on by, I know that, but while they last, it sure isn't fun!

5 comments:

  1. I am having the same type of day. One day I feel strong and hopeful and then the next I am a mess. It is such an emotional roller coaster. I have been crying at everything today - Boo on today. I am praying for you.

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  2. Girl I know exactly how you feel! I agree with the comment above me - it is a roller coaster! Hang in there! Good luck with the injections!

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  3. I've been VERY busy today. I guess that's a good thing, it kept my mind off of things. It is a roller coaster of emotions and it's hard. But somehow, we all do it, we all manage, and we get through it. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, they mean a lot, they really do.

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  4. Aww, the Future Mommy store comment made me sad. :(
    I have so much hope for you with the injects!

    And you're right, it's so so hard, but God won't give you too much to handle. I cling to that thought quite a bit.

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  5. I love your analogy about the Future mommy store and being broken. I often am not able to spit out the words to mean what I'm trying to say, and those are perfect! I hope that you'll find a renewed hope soon. I know those dark days all to well.

    Praying the injectables work wonders for you! Good luck!

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