I realized as I was getting comments about my last post that most people reading this blog this week are visiting for ICLW. So I wanted to give you some background on my journey. I think it may help to understand my posts this week.
So my journey...I married my best friend, the love of my life, my knight in shining armor, August 2, 2003. It's been a great 6+ years. Yes, we've had some rough moments, but everyone has them, life is not easy. We decided before we got married that we needed to wait to TTC. Kids weren't a priority for us at that time. We focused our energy on Hubby finishing his graduate studies and building our marriage. That was important for us. Marriage, no doubt, will change after kids are added to the mix. So we felt we needed to establish our foundation.
We decided in August 2007 that it was time for kids. So I stopped taking my bcp and we eagerly jumped on the TTC wagon. I had no inkling that it would take so long to even get to the point we are at now, and there still is no baby other than my little fur baby. For some reason, I thought that miraculously, my body would cooperate after going off bcp, even though I was on bcp from 1997 up to that point just to regulate my cycle and keep cysts away. Duh...I should've known. But everyone wants to have a baby without all the medication, the almost daily trips to the RE, the temperature charts, the list could go on and on. Needless to say, it was a mistake.
My cycle was almost regular for over a year. October 2008, AF came and AF stayed and AF wouldn't leave. AF was a beast. My lining must have built itself up for a few months, even though AF had come up to that point. I thought I was going to end up in the ER and need blood transfusions. My OBGYN called in Provera. After the first round of Provera, AF still didn't go away. I had to do another dose of Provera. That's when the OBGYN wanted me to start temping. It revealed what he already knew but needed documentation-I don't ovulate.
So I started Clomid, 50mg. No ovulation. Another round of Provera. Started 100mg of Clomid. I ovulated for two cycles but didn't get pregnant. The third cycle on 100mg, I didn't ovulate again. He sent me out to the RE.
The RE is amazing. We had our first consult in June of this year. His first comment to me was "What took you so long to come in here? Don't you know that you have PCOS and most likely will not conceive without ART?" "ART? What is ART?" Assisted Reproduction Technology/Therapy. So I did another round of 100mg of Clomid, but he added Ovidrel to my routine. Yay, finally a strong ovulation. I did three more Clomid cycles after that, all with trigger and IUI. No babies...after my last Clomid cycle, one of my follicles didn't release. And low and behold, it became a cyst.
I had to take a month off with bcp. I was devasted, to say the least. That was October. I was supposed to start injectables that cycle. But it's good I didn't. The RE has discovered that I have a diminished number of eggs. So my protocol is the same as if I were going to do IVF. It's been a rough journey to get this point, but now I'm in my 2ww from my first injectables cycle.
That's my story. It brings you all up to date. Thanksgiving is AF's arrival day and the day I POAS if she isn't here. So fingers crossed, say some prayers!
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