A blog about Infertility, family, Embracing God's plans, and the unconditional love of a husband and daughter on our journey through life, holding hands together
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Monday, December 7, 2009
Will the Nerves Ever Calm Down?
I had my 4th beta done today, Today, it's at 3,179 at 26 DPO. So that's a great number. Good things are happening so far. My number has steadily doubled, almost like textbook perfection. Numbers are going up too fast or too slow, but they are just right. Yet, my nerves are shot. I wonder if my nerves will ever calm down about this pregnancy! I worked so hard to get to this point, and so much prayer went in to getting here. This child of mine was conceived by prayer and hard work. But I'm so nervous that Little Bean won't be there on Wednesday night's ultrasound. I'm petrified of hearing that it's a blighted ovum or an ectopic pregnancy. Not that I've had any pain to say that it's ectopic, it is just one of those thoughts in the back of my mind. I don't want to get all excited about this child until I see that they are perfect on Wednesday night. But I'm just soooo nervous. So pray for Little Bean and me, that everything will be okay and Little Bean will just be perfect in every way.
I am 31 years old and so is my darling husband, Phil. We've been married for seven years now. He is the love of my life, my best friend, and the most patient man I know. We tried for over two years to start a family and finally, by the grace of God, we welcomed our precious miracle on July 28, 2010. Life always stays interesting!