So tomorrow is my "Next Step" consult with Dr. VanDeerlin. I'm not excited to discuss daily injectables. But I am ready to take the next step if this weekend reveals another busted cycle. I guess I've had to come to terms with the reality that conceiving a child is not easy as pie for someone in my shoes. It helps that I have a doctor who does care about the emotional aspect of infertility. He has always been very encouraging and positive.
A small part of me regrets not going to see the RE sooner. I thought everything was going great on its own, why would I need to see a specialist? AF came every month for over a year. I thought I was finally "normal," "cured." HA! There is no cure for PCOS. I wish I had gone sooner and reached the silver lining earlier, that silver lining that I am still trying to reach. Then, I keep reminding myself that regrets are silly. I should regret nothing, as my life's events are already planned by God before I get there. He's weaving a beautiful tapestry of my life, even though all I see is the ugly underneath with all the twisted, tangled, and mangled threads.
Anyway, I'll post after my doctor consult tomorrow. We'll see what he thinks the next step should be. I can't imagine we would jump right in to IVF. Fingers crossed that he suggests daily injectables, which he has talked about a few times.
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